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“If happy ever after did exist, I would still be holding you like this”

lol corny, but I’m diggin’ this song. <3 

I have come to realize that in the whole existence of the human race, things happen, not by chance, but by sheer willpower and something we like to call fate. Think about it, if you could relive your whole life, would it turn out any other way? Would you have chosen the same things? Make the same decisions? Make the same mistakes? Could things turn out any different from that moment you were conceived? I think so. I think that there is a reason why certain things happen. Otherwise, what is the reason for us living? What is the reason why we go through pain, suffering, disappointment, intense personal reflection, depression, when we could just shrug it off and go on our merry way? We have feelings of intense happiness as well, accomplishment, contentedness, bliss, etc., and I don’t think that life is just trying to mess with our emotions.

For me, my journey is a constant learning experience. For anything I go through, it starts off with enthusiasm, with a back and forth switching off of disappointment and accomplishment, and eventually ends with either a positive experience or negative one (more of the former). Other factors determine the outcome, like previous experience/knowledge, confidence in said endeavour, and overall effort put into it.

I like to think about our existence as running on a timeline. When things don’t go your way, the line warps, and skews into a separate timeline “—-\___”, sorta like that I guess. The dotted line is our universe and our current existence, the backslash is the tangent, and the underscore is the new timeline, which in turn becomes the new dotted line (our current existence). So my idea is that we don’t just live on one straight time line, it constantly becomes several different universes  based on what occurs in life. When something does randomly go your way after the line has skewed, the parallel universe(___) rubber bands back to your current timeline(——), even for a moment. 

Another way of describing this is, when your life is out of whack or you have difficulty getting something, imagine a bunch of puzzle pieces that won’t fit, or a bunch of jumbled pixels/censored image. When your life is falling into place or you understand something the pieces do fit, and the jumbled pixels become clear and make the perfect image. Like when you can’t get something, there is a fog that masks your ability to accomplish something, but then out of nowhere, you get an epiphany and get it with relative ease.

Those descriptions could also be applied to anything, passions, hobbies, love, studies, whatever things that involve a positive and negative outcome. Right now for me, my puzzle pieces and whatnot are basically perfect (save for love).

Hm in a way I guess my analogies are another way of describing everyone’s personal roller coaster, everyone has ups and downs, and sometimes some people are in alignment with others roller coasters, sometimes people are up while others are down. I don’t know where I’m going with this. lolol

Basically if you work on yourself, more positive things will happen, that’s what I believe.

:)

B-E-A-UTIFUL! :o

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bokchoitv:

Why do people keep acting like a new year means changes? Why do people choose a new year to make resolutions? Seriously, it’s no different from making a resolution today, or tomorrow. Stop acting like 2012 means starting new or some shit. It’s the same new years as last year, and the year before, and so on. If you want to change, don’t depend on the year, depend on yourself. If you want to make a resolution, don’t wait for the new year, make it now and start working on it now.

lol I am continually changing, and in my opinion it’s just a coincidence that many changes occur in the following months after new years. Spring of 2011 was my most fittest, most creative, and most productive time of the year, and that was due to vowing to myself to keep moving no matter what happens; I had to prove to myself that I could move past my inner demons and not be stuck in a rut due to some negative outcomes. This past year has been just a big ass resolution for me. It has shown me my strengths and weaknesses. so i agree, everybody do your resolutions anytime, and you should always aim to improve all the time. 

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why is it that the human condition is inherently made to hate, has the capacity to do harm, has the need to express animosity, when people don’t even realize or care that what they do and feel is wrong and unjustified? I’ve noticed for a long time running, that my peers (and myself included) are quick to put down and even ridicule certain things about people that if we looked closely, we look pretty damn pathetic ourselves.

In an argument, what often happens is a standoff. In the end, it all comes down to WHO will own up to their mistake, WHO will let up, and above all else, who’s fault it was. Where most of us are preoccupied with letting the world know how much we hate this person/these people for doing this or that, or complaining about someones blunders, or being frustrated for something that is apparently counterintuitive or counterproductive, people have got to learn to look at themselves first and foremost, and figure out why they’re holding in all this anger, and hate, and pessimism. 

In my honest opinion, no matter the experience, intelligence, nor age will mean shit in who’s right or wrong or who deserves to be talked shit about. People have got to look internally and look themselves in the eyes and ask themselves, “Is all this really all worth it in the long run? What have they really done to me to garner my wrath/ridicule? Am I willing to never see them again just because of this one small thing? What the fuck am I doing with MY life?”

I want the world to someday realize what they have gotten themselves into is a self-perpetuating hate circle that will only bring more hate. Sure, there are assholes out there, there are bitches, and whores, and narcissists, pessimists, fakes, and dumb asses. The world ain’t some cookie cutter society where people have to be a certain way. Nobody’s perfect. Shit, people have got to grow up, and that includes me (lest our society become some sort of shallow ass convoluted mess). 

I know that I won’t really change when it comes to poking fun at certain people, that comes naturally and is meant with no ill will, but if it starts to become hurtful is where I put the line. Nobody deserves to go through shit because of how they look, act, or any other verb for that matter (fill in the blank). We’re all living our lives, and I believe that life would be much simpler if we worried about our own problems and promoted P.L.U.R.

Peace, Love, Unity, and Respect. Now, I am a big advocate of this mantra. This may sound like some new age hippie shit, but hear me out. People know this acronym from the rave life, and I may sound silly, but what has been instilled in our generation is gold. To love one another and to not judge, to be united as a people, not divided by race, class, or any of that bad shit, and to tote a big ass empathetic heart on their sleeve. I see people that are all “plur-y” at events, but shady assholes every other day of the week. People have got to exercise common courtesy… has anyone heard of it? I myself have some ways to go because I so happen to get easily annoyed by small things, but I’m trying, and I’m getting better. I’m becoming the movement I want to be, not putting a front for anyone, but being like this all the time. Peace, love, unity, respect, now who doesn’t want all that? People don’t gotta be on drugs to experience this. I’m not doing this for new years or anything like that. I was always humble and relatively nice when it came to interacting with people (everyone knows this), and I’ve only recently started to appreciate everything that I have and the things people do for me. The only reason why I hate on people is because they aren’t true to themselves, they take things for granted, and because I see a little bit of myself in them, I really don’t hate them at all. I had a phase once when I was a wee lad in high school, when I was relatively religious; I wanted to be a saint (minus the being a prude), and now I know why I want to be this way. I know that there is a way to do everything in a peaceful manner. I say with forgiveness, forgiving people and yourself, that can be the first step to enlightenment.

“It is better to be violent, if there is violence in our hearts, than to put on the cloak of nonviolence to cover impotence.” -Mahatma Gandhi

So now I continue my journey of loveydoveyness. P.L.U.R. :D

bokchoitv:

Get it through your thick-ass skull, you’re “Tumblr Famous,” not a fucking celebrity. You get a shit load of notes for dumb ass posts and pictures of yourself. People only follow you for your looks because they think they have a chance with your shady-ass. You have such a high ego that you think…

Dude, I can totally think of a handful of people that fit that category. -__- All these fake asses rocking them snapbacks, varsity jackets, never wash jeans, hype clothing… and lacking a personality to boot. I’ve seen these people on Black Friday at Great Mall, LOL. I mean I admit, I think those clothes look clean, and I do have those clothes, but when people start becoming all judgmental and shit just on looks, that’s something I disagree with. I think people should be more focused on blogging rather than caring about how many people think they’re cute. I especially hate that shit about people deeming others unworthy of being talked to, hell, I think I’ve had it happen to me before. I’ve been humble, and no sort of recognition or praise will change me. These kind of people are perpetuating that stereotype of tumblr being a picture site for teeny boppers. Fuck them fake “snap-back kids”, and both sexes that think they’re too good for anyone. 

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